5/13/2012

I love you the most...

Happy Mother’s Day

to the most inspirational, supportive and beautiful person I know. My Momma.
I wish I could be there to shower you in love and kisses Mom, but as I can't I'm counting on Sonya to give you a few extra smooches on my behalf ;)

This year you've asked for this post rather than a flimsy Hallmark card that would, knowing the Royal Mail, get lost on the way to you anyway. Nevertheless, it's my job to do in this post what I do every year in a card, and that is... make you cry. Sorry Mom, but you know the rules. This is my moment to be a big fat sap and tell you from the bottom of my heart how much I love, appreciate and look up to you. Throughout the year I know I don't tell you often enough how much you mean to me. My excuse (even though there really isn't an excuse) is that life and the Atlantic Ocean gets in the way. Although we talk often we're always too busy to have big heart-to-heart Skype chats, or write lovely surprise cards/letters. You've got work, nights where you teach line-dancing and adventures with Dad. I've got my PGCE, Carl's immigration papers and the stress of trying to move half way across the world again. But once I'm back home I'm excited to be able to spend more time together. In all honesty, it's one of the things I look most forward to most. I can't wait to have lunch dates at Noonie's where we both order the most GINORMOUS veggie sandwich EVER. The afternoons we sit on the back porch together just rocking on the patio chairs (sometimes with Sangria) watching a huge thunderstorm roll in. Or our fun trips to the Village Creemee Stand. My favorite was the time when you backed out of the parking lot at mach 5 (before I'd finished buckling up) which caused my rainbow sprinkle creemee to become airborne and fly directly into the air conditioning vents and touch screen Sat Nav. It's totally your own fault that for about a month afterwards you got pelted with sprinkles every time you put the AC on. Haaahaha! Seriously, Mom. Just writing about it makes me just about pee my pants. That's probably one of my favorite moments EVER. Do you remember pulling into the gas station swearing like a Banshee, telling me to get out cause ice cream was dripping everywhere but I was laughing so hard I couldn't even open the door? Eventually you found the humor in the situation and laughed too. Definitely a story for the grandchildren someday.

All throughout my life everyone has told me 'You look exactly like your mother!' 'You're a mini Betty!' 'What you just said...that's something your mother would say!' Even now Dad's favorite line is "Amanda, you're just like your mother!" But when I was younger I hated that. I hated being told I looked and acted just like you because when you're a teenager it's so not 'cool' to be just like your Mom. Well, unless your Mom is Madonna or Jamie Lee Curtis - but that's a whole other story. With that said, the older I get the more and more I see the resemblance myself, and I say 'Thank you!' with a smile because I know it's a compliment. You're one of the most beautiful people I know. The older I get the more I realize I AM just like you. The older I get the more I realize I AM your mini-me. Only the other day I caught myself saying to Carl the same exact thing you used to say to me: "Get that fricken wet towel off the bed and hang it up! If you leave it there it's gonna make the whole room smell like cat pee!" and as soon as it came out of my mouth I laughed and I thought oh no...it's TRUE! I guarantee in the future when tiny terrors have invaded the Anderson household I'll also use Hallmarked Betty sayings such as 'don't make me stop this car!' and "are you sure you want to push my buttons?" But aside from shouting about wet towels, stopping the car and pushing buttons, I know that I get some of my best attributes from you. Things like my ability to view the cup half full rather than half empty. My self worth. My determination. My independence. My compassion for other people. And best of all, my ability to say "well if other people don't like me, tough shit! It's their loss!" You've taught me to love myself and to be proud of who I am.



You're my hero and I feel truly blessed that you're MY Mother. You're someone I confide in, trust, admire, turn to for support and guidance. You're one of my best friends, and I pray that if someday I have a daughter we'll share the same kind of relationship as you and I do now. Of course she'll probably be just like me, you us and we'll butt heads just as you and I did. She'll probably be an ungrateful little turd during those nasty teenage years just like I was and she'll shout 'I hate you! You're ruining my life!' when she doesn't get her way. But just as you were with me, I'll be patient. I'll be supportive. I'll encourage her to dream big, to do whatever she wants to do and go wherever makes her happiest (even if that's all the way across the world). I'll wipe away her tears during a curler induced Bridezilla moment the night before her wedding and give big hugs. I'll stand beside her and be that cheerleader you've always been for me. I'll try and be as much like you as I can, the best Mom in the whole world. I'll try and be her hero.
Which brings me to this video with this song. For years now I've listened to Rascal Flatts - My Wish with tear filled eyes because that's your song to Sonya and I. That's the song I listen to when I miss you most because it makes me feel closer to you, it helps me to stay grounded and it reminds me you're my biggest fan (click here to read my post about that special song). But up until now I've never had a song that I could give back to you, that you could listen to and understand the significance of all that you've done. With Dad being as obsessed with Country music as he is, I'm sure you've heard this song already, but I only found it today and it made me cry. The lyrics are perfect and they describe you to a T. So from now on, this is my 'Mom' song. And the next time you're feeling overwhelmed and miserable, listen to this song, listen to these words and know how special you are. Know how fantastic you've always been as a Mother. Know how much you're loved and appreciated and smile again.  

Pretty perfect, huh?
Even though you were NAUGHTY and opened your Mother's Day present 3 days early (tut tut! You're worse than a 5 year old!) I'm tickled pink that you love your rosette necklace :) I bought it from The Polka Dot Posie where it was hand made by my beautiful friend Jen (thank you SO much for the personalized note inside Twinnie! You're a doll!) and her mother! I know you hate having your picture taken and originally I'd only asked you to send a pic of you with your necklace on to show ME, but because you were a dork and opened your present too early I'm sharing that cute picture on my blog now for hundreds of people to see too :) haha That'll teach you!

I'm sorry that for the 4th year in a row I'm missing out on spending a Mother's Day with you, but in less than two months I'll be back home for good. Next year I promise we'll do something super fun, and no it won't involve rainbow sprinkles. I know that Sonya and Dad will spoil you rotten today anyway, so use this special day to your advantage. Lounge around, ask Dad to bring you some Sangria and fan you with a banana leaf, and if you give her the bottom lip maybe Sonya will make some of your favorite No-Bake cookies ;)

I can't wait for a my long awaited Mom hug in July. I miss you more than words can say and always remember that...
Wishing a Happy Mother's Day to the most beautiful woman I know, and also to all of the other lovely Momma's out there! You all rock and deserve this day of recognition! Soak it all up! :) 

Thanks for reading guys!
Lots of love, love, love,



10 comments:

  1. My heart is so filled with pride and love after reading this. As usual very well written/expressed Amanda. I am trying to write this while tears are still filling my eyes. As always I am proud to be your mother, and look forward everyday to seeing you grow and watch you with such pride become all that you choose. Thank you for my post. xoxo

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    1. I'm so glad you liked it, Momma :) You're very welcome :) Love you xoxo

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  2. It sounds like your mom is a lot of fun! Happy mother's day to her!

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  3. What a BEAUTIFUL post!!! I can see just how much you love your momma and how hard it must have been to be away from her so long!! I was getting tears when I read your post, but your mom's comment just did me in! I hope your momma had the BEST Mother's Day ever and I am so happy she liked her necklace :-) Lots of love to you both. xoxo

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    1. Haha you cried cause you're like me and we're a pair of saps. Ha! :) Thanks again for making her a beautiful necklace :) xoxoxoxo

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  4. what a beautiful post! so happy you'll be able to celebrate together and in person next year!

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    1. Thanks, Lauren. I hope you enjoyed a FANTASTIC first Mother's Day! You deserve it! :) xoxo

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  5. Amanda,
    What a Beautiful Post...It truly broght tears to my eyes, especially knowing how Much your Mom Misses you and is counting the days for your return home with your Husband Carl...
    Your Blogs are so well written and fun to read...You have a Beautiful Talent for writing... and express your feelings from your Heart, that is what makes them so special...

    Much Love to You and see you when you get home!
    Love You! x0x0

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